You know, it's kind of funny, but it seems that every life I touch, I make it better. I enter into my Moon's life and because of me, she got a better job, greater indenpendence, a awesome place to live and a future husband (Much to my annoyance)

Another close friend has left the house, found a new boyfriend that she is seriously into and might marry.

I stepped in to my mothers life seriously since I moved out and saved her from drinking herself to death, I had a 'forced intervention' for her, you might say.

It's just amusing that I can create all this great healing for other people, yet I still bleed on the inside. While I have really gotten over the loss of my Moon, well as much as one can get over someone that they love, I am still lonely.

I keep hoping that someone will come into my life and make me better, heal me, help me find what I need.

But I've made myself stronger. I am honestly amazed I've not had a ugly emotional break down with all I've had to go through these last couple of months and things are getting better for me, the issues are not bothering me so much anymore and I am moving out in a few months and we'll see what happens from there.